Notes from my 45th trip (Ceu do Montanha)

When you want someone to go through something horrible only because they put you through the same thing, just so they can feel what you feel, take a good look at yourself in the mirror, when you feel this.

I am learning how to forgive.

It is important not to be easily offended but also stand up when things are being unnecessarily attacked.

I am like a much happier person than I used to be.

Love is not a fight, but there are a series of tests, where you asked to change some things about yourself. And that is sometimes a struggle.

Love is free to some degree, but it doesn't always stay if you are not responsible.

I've made a lot of mistakes w/ Flora, and I'm seeing that now. I realize this entire time apart, this whole thing, is about making up for my errors and presenting a better self when the time is right. And I think (hope) she's doing the same.

Conversa com Preto Velho

“If you’ve met the love of your life, like you know who that person is, are you dedicated to that person for the rest of your life?”

“Yes. You must remain faithful.”

“Even if we are not together? Even if you are not sure if they are faithful to you?”

“If you really love her, you will stay faithful. It is a test of your love.”

“This love, does it come back?”

“If you pass, yes.”

“…”

“One last thing: It is important to not have any hopes with this love. No expectations. Take the love that you have for her, and give it to God.”

Notes from my 44th trip (Casamento do Alex e Brandon)

I am a messenger of people's desperation.

To come from a clan is a powerful thing.

It is your responsibility to discipline your beasts.

I'm just waiting for Flora to come back.

Notes from my 43rd trip (Gira)

(Private Session)

Notes from my 42nd trip (Missa da 1 mês da passagem do José Abramovitz)

VIVA JOSÉ ABRAMOVITZ!!!!!!!

Notes from my 41st trip (Concentração)

It hurts to try and forget someone out of your life.

You reach a certain level of maturity when you can laugh at someone's ability to piss you off.

There is a lot of anger to be rid of from this body.

When you write, write with intention. There is already too much trashy garbage out there. Make your words matter. Make every one count.

Sometimes I just need someone I trust to tell me who I am.

I'm good at what I do, because I don't sleep from this shit. 
There is no escape.

There will be a home waiting for you, 

if that is what you decide that you want in your life, 

Flora. 

Update for my letter writer

I've changed residence to the "Morada de Sol" pousada on Rua 12. I will be wearing a SpongeBob hat for the rest of my stay in Paraty. I hope to see you.