Monday, December 14, 2015

Notes from my 100th trip (20th Anniversary work)







I still feel like half a person without Flora. I'm wandering around looking for the person who hurt me.








There is such thing as one person being able to be your entire universe. It exists. 








I don't have too many messages left. I hope you all have been listening. 








I am sincerely going to miss this practice.







Flora was the most colorful person I knew.








I miss her so much that it hurts. 











I've met many fine women, but none of them are Flora.














I don't know why I am fluent in Brazilian Portuguese. 










The king needs to emerge from your spirit. The king knows no anger, no jealousy, no sadness. He is firm in his mission to work!









I'm an investigative journalist which therefore makes me hard to date. I will go back on both our lives.













I am here to say now that I regret every mean thing that I ever said to my mother.













There is value in understanding how systems work and the experience of those who are operating it. Take a flight, for instance.










You can always fight the death sentence. 











The people who make Japanese Anime are geniuses.












Flora. If I never see you again, I need you to know that I Love You, I Love You, I Love You. I will always be here for whenever you need.










This is going to be my last note. I love you all. 














Thursday, December 10, 2015

Notes from my 99th trip (São Miguel)









I don't have many more tears to shed. I left most of them here on the island last time.








I'm lucky that I still have both my parents with me.







It is an unfortunate truth that the world does not value art.









The instructions from the other side are simple. Treat others with Love, compassion and respect. Be grateful for everything and everyone that got you where you are today. And be a hard worker. THats about everything. 








I miss you everyday, Flora










Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Notes from my 98th trip (Concentration)

This is going to sound completely insane, but these notes are from the other side. I go there to retrieve them.













We have everything backwards. We idolize and worship the young when we should do that for the old. They are the ones on the way out. They are closer to God. 











Vice finally paid me. Those cheap bastards. I basically work for them for free. 









I asked this girl her age and she said, "A lady never tells and a gentleman never asks," in such the perfect way that it made me ashamed of my comportment. I still found out though. 











The most important thing I learned through this whole ordeal is to Love myself. And I couldn't have gotten here without my friends and family. I Love You, I Love You, I Love You. There is nothing I would not do for my friends and family.












Monday, December 7, 2015

Friday, December 4, 2015

Notes from my 95th trip (Feitio Day 4)










Whenever someone says, "Oh my relationship with so-and-so is like you and Flora's..." and when they proceed to tell me I so absolutely want them to shut the fuck up because they are off in at least 7 different ways. Look, whatever you think you know about me and Flora is 100% based on my recollection, and even that is only 50% of the whole story. 









Notes from my 96th trip (Feitio Day 5)








Happy Birthday, Flora.











The most annoying status update someone can post is, "The only constant in life is change." It's like the first time a person who doesn't think very deeply realizes there is truth in paradox.













Thursday, December 3, 2015

Notes from my 94th trip (Feitio Day 3)

There are only 3 movies one needs to watch to understand the entirty of Love (well, actually 6, but the last 3 are one story):

1) "I Love You, Man"
2) "Crazy, Stupid, Love"
3) "The 'Before' Series. 
("Before Sunrise")
("Before Sunset")
("Before Midnight")












Flora always liked that I didn't kill the cockroaches in my apartment.












Being here has given me the courage to revisit the past.













Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Notes from my 93rd trip (Feitio Day 2)








Heartbreak actually hurts, like there is a swelling into your throad. It feels like heartburn and it stings in the center.








You can do this.








I plant flowers on the dead earth.











The best question to ask someone: "Tell me your story." 










My acupunturist told me that I was my mother's only friend.









There is no way that I will let my mom die scared. There is no way that I will let my mother's last feeling in this life be of fear. I will never leave her side before her final breath . I would die to protect my mother. 











My parents never planned for any of their marriage to turn out the way it did. It was an environment I was born into.









I had a dream that all the humans of the world disappeared and there were only Gargoyles. I remember being carried by Goliath and Demona, and I suddenly missed my family. When I woke to the sound of my father walking through the door, it was instant relief. I don't think I've hugged him that tightly since.
















Look for a Psylocke action figure.
















The entire time I dated Flora, she only sang to me once. It was "Withdraw" by Kimbra.











My mom would have loved to have Flora as a daughter-in-law.










Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Notes from my 92nd trip (Feitio Day 1)










The more I was myself, the more Flora fell in love with me. That's the thing that most people don't get when I say I still haven't gotten over Flora. She made me feel special. She made me feel like I mattered.













You know you're really good friends with someone when you both laugh at the same joke that neither of you had to say.












If I was to die right now, I think my last bit of advice that I have for the world is the following:

"Be nice to your parents. They may or may not put you through hell, but they gave you life. And learning how to appreciate that life is pretty much the purpose of it. 















The purpose in life is to appreciate being alive














One of my only regrets in life is not going out with Grace for New Years in Italy. We decided not to because our hotel was far from downtown and we wouldn't be able to get back until 4AM. We stayed in and I fell asleep before midnight. New Years was always Grace's favorite holiday and I ruined it. I know this might not mean a lot now but I'm sorry, Grace.



















Scott. I need to write aout Scott. Hold me to it. Demand it.



















I'm proud of you for making it here.





















Sunday, November 22, 2015

Notes from my 91st trip (Concentration)










You're no longer good at your job the moment you think you're too good to take advice. 












The majority of my problems stem from me putting myself down. 

















I always had a child-like anticipation whenever I saw Flora. Everytime. No other person made me feel that way on such a consistent basis. 















I may not end up w/ Flora, but she taught me my definition of true love. She taught me a lot about what I have been searching for in this life. 















Fightland treats its writers like fighters. In other words, they treat you like shit, but you're somehow better b/c of it in the end. 



















Being an investigative journalist is essentially a job designed to determine the truth in a matter. I guess when put like that, it makes total sense that that is my chosen profession. 

















I think one of the most helpful tips I've heard on being a good writer is the importance of being curious.

















A huge part of how capitalism works is profiting off people's depression. In other words, there are systems in place that intentionally keep you trapped in cycles of depression b/c that is how it generates profit. It is truly, truly sick. 



















There is something super endearing about hearing your father call himself "kind of a half-assed sort of guy". 
















My father described going back to Taiwan as going back to the land of his childhood as a rich man. I get it. In many ways he beat life. He's losing in other ways, but that's where I come in. 














You cannot be too invested in how you feel.














When was the first time you were hurt















I see now that this entire process has been about acquiring armor for my return to Brazil.















One of the best things I heard tonight was a fiction writer describing to me what he does. He finished by saying, "I've just given myself license to make up stories." 













Flora. The light is always on for you. 













Sunday, November 15, 2015

Notes from my 90th trip (Finados)











Everyone has to have their way to make sense of the world.











There needs to be a steady practice of something to see yourself through the storms.








I think about the people that made compostable garbage bags, and I just wonder how much thought and science must have went behind that, like how much someone would need to know about how many things in order to make that a workable idea. There's no way they started from nothing to eventually get to the goal of compostable garbage bags. They had to have built off of some prior knowledge that was already established. It's all really just serendipitous timing. I'm blabbering about all this to say: 

Focus on what your work is now, no matter how much you think you hate it. There is a reason it exists, there are lessons to be learned, and the only real way to get out of a tough spot is to master the thing you hate. 











A lot of times what we think is good for the world is actually just good for us. It's important to keep that ego in check.














Regardless of your opinion on fighting, to see and meet someone who has mastered an art of combat is impressive, if you know the time, sacrifice and discipline the higher levels require. 
















It's amazing how much we can play the victim in a relationship when we're only looking at it from one angle. It's funny, but when Flora and I were together, even the mere suggestion of us breaking up was preposterous, like someone had tried to convince me that gravity did not exist. Us being together was a fact embedded into my heart. It was the only thing I was sure of. Still kind of am. 











Flora was super irresponsible in so many ways, but she was never vicious towards me. That just wasn't part of her nature. But I was to her. She saw very ugly sides of me. I see that now. That's what needs to leave my body.









Sunday, November 8, 2015

Notes from my 89th trip (Light of Christ)











Michael, you have inherited the being that is haunting your family. It is ancestral. It is up to you if you want it to finally end w/ you.












I think the moment I started doubting Ken Wilber as any sort of teacher to follow was the moment he openly admitted to beating the shit out of his wife, who was diagnosed w/ terminal cancer and was dying, then tried to somehow make himself out to be a victim in the whole ordeal. It's like yeah...go fuck yourself dude.














I could not have become a boxer without the help of Grace Kong.












The women who have appeared in my life vying for the position Flora once held should know exactly what that position is. It is the throne of my life, my example o be a better person, to honor and never betray. Never hurt. That is how I revered Flora. That is the type of dedication I was talking about because I am ready. 




















Basically, if you are to ask what I've been doing w/ my life, it is aI am taking care of my home. It is and has been going through a significant remodeling. 













Perhaps the best message I took away from watching the 2hrs 22mins of "The Martian" can be seen in one of its previews. It says: 

"I guarantee you, that at some point, everything is going to go south on you. And you're going to say, 'This is it. This is how I end.' Now you can either accept that, or you can get to work." 









The truth of a great writer is that they are a channel for the divine and it is their duty to care for the vehicle that needs to deliver that message. 












The passing of Dennis Costello brought together 400 bikers across America. Let me repeat that. 400 bikers. Like tattooed outlaws for real. They had a motorcade running from Seattle to Tacoma. For a man to have that kind of influence, that much affect on so many individuals that they came out to send him off well, is an inspiration to aspire to. 









I once met a very pretty girl at a bar in L.A. She's actually the one that started our conversation. It went:
"I told your friend that I find you intimidating, but he told me you were a really nice guy and that I should just talk to you."
"And what do you think?"
"I don't know yet, but why do you wear that do-rag?" (It wasn't a do-rag, but looks like one.)
"It's not a do-rag."
"Whatever it is, you should lose it. Because you're so cute, but you wearing that scares women away."
I ignore the insulting cultural implication and just smile in response, taking in the compliment more than anything.
"I'm serious, you're really good looking! You could probably have any girl here."
I probably blushed at this point.
"But don't get any ideas," she said. "I'm married."
We then had a 15 min conversation about she met her husband (b/c that's what I would do w/ that information). Turns out, they were together for 7 years before they got married, suffered a number of betrayals (mostly infidelity, mostly from him) and it wasn't until a six-month no-contact period that he proposed to her. After all that I said:
"How did you get over all that? I mean, how did you trust him again?"
And she looked at me, w/ the deadest look in her eyes, and said the words that have been tattooed on my heart ever since.
"I had to forgive him," she said.







I respect and appreciate Floyd Mayweather Jr. as a fighter, but I feel differently about him as a person. I disagree w/ almost everything he represents, primarily his obsession and God-like revere of money. That and he beat the shit out of the mother of his children. I don't think people pay enough attention to that.









"Healing is not an event. Salvation is not an event. It is a path to be followed." 











I am not looking to be married; I have met someone that I want to marry. There's a huge difference.






Monday, October 19, 2015

Notes from my 88th trip (Cura)










This is going to sound like horrible, useless writing advice, but the only reason I got as far as I have is because I believed in what I was doing and stuck to it. 
















I am in love w/ redemption, the stories of those who pick up the shambles and find the courage to put themselves back together. I'm in love w/ the comeback kid, and that's basically why I write about boxing.














You've been looking for a manual to live life, as if there is a right brand to follow in life. The truth is there is no manual, no right way, no brand. You have to create your own way of living life that is to be original. 
















Cultural appropriation is not only offensive, wrong, insulting and all the other things that describe bad, it is just plain fucking annoying too.
















I read some stuff that I wrote 5 years ago and I literally want to punch that person in the face.
















I think one of my new goals is to have my father understand me before he goes. 


















Be gentle w/ yourself, especially during the mistakes




















Every morning is a new negotiation. Every single justification in the world comes to talk me out of my morning routine. I'm too tired, rigidity is going to make me stale, over-training is bad an actually contra to progress, but I do it anyway. And I'm glad that I do.













Abandoned children remind their birth parents of the shame in abandoning their children, so they shun them further, running from the problems. The ones who suffers is the child. They are probably the only ones I'd call victims. Born w/o a chance.















Institutions that know how to appeal to what people are seeking, out of desperation, but then not have any substance behind their structure, those are the sworn enemies of my life.












Life is not about giving into the darkness, the voices that tell you it is hopeless. Life is about ignoring those voices.

















I think I'm addicted to comeback stories. Addicted to Redemption. How ironic.




















There are many times I fell in love w/ Desirée, but one of the first happened in West Seattle. We started by having brunch at Luna Park, an option she chose when I asked if she wanted low-key or fancy $100 brunch on the waterfront. I knew the moment she chose. We shared an Elvis Burger, a hamburger w/ peanut butter + bananas, which actually isn't that bad when you try it. There was one of those table jukeboxes, so I asked to change 2 dollars and had tunes running throughout. She picked half of them. We splurged that day - had burger, fries, a cinnamon roll and a coke. Even ice cream while walking down Alki. It was one of the first times I remember being happy. We spoke about a variety of things, not much that I can remember, but it was filling, purposeful. As we sat on the beach facing the water, she rested her head against my shoulders. It was a true example of peace. I realized then that this is what I wanted out of life, maybe not w/ her, it wasn't to be known yet, but she pointed me in the right direction. That is how I will always view Desirée. As a guide. My North Star.






















Half of life is finding out who your partner is. The other half is trying to convince them that they are your partner. 
















How dedicated I am to Flora still is really ridiculous, irrational and kind of pathetic. I do everything I can to forget her. But she's still there, as present as ever. My feelings for her have literally not shifted one bit in the slightest. I don't really know what to do, but at the same time, all this should also tell me something.














Being a grandparent is an accomplishment in life. You've provided a safe enough environment for your children to have children. I get that now. 

















Writing is an incredible act of trusting yourself. 
















I understand why homeless people sleep a lot. Sleep is one of the unknown, underrated, unrecognized addictive drugs in this world. It disguises itself as a solution to a problem, then keeps you under its habit. 














The earth will always give you enough to survive. You are a child of Mother Earth, and as long as you have faith, it will never fail you. But to make something of yourself, that is up to you as an individual and a test of how well you use the resources given to you in this life.













The thing about Flora was that I was always so amazed w/ her, even the little things - how she stretched her legs, put on her socks, the way she snored. I was in awe of it all. It was truly divine. 














My friend, brother really, asked me to send him some songs I recorded in the Amazon. They were still unedited in my phone. He was leaving in 2 days. To be honest, I was busy as fuck and I wouldn't have felt the least bit bad for saying no. But I did it. And now I have a good memory of helping a friend and brand new songs on my desktop. 













I like fasts because they remind what it is to chew, to bite, to our natural instincts. I'm not so aware of the actual health benefits of fasting, but in terms of realigning you and being a friendly reminder of where we come from, it is a healthy way to approach life. 












I became friends w/ Duy because I didn't snitch on him in front of the cops. That night I learned two things: The importance of loyalty and keeping your mouth shut. And the other was that the police LIE.












The Light is always there. 
















Sunday, October 18, 2015

Notes from my 87th trip (Concentration)






Sometimes that last thing you want to do is move forward, but you have to. Because that's life.









For all the people who are telling me that I'm doing the right thing by moving on from Flora, I respectfully ask you to kindly shut the fuck up. This will most likely never stop affecting me.
















"I swear, I meet the most amazing people at these things."

"You know why that is, brother?"

"Why?"

"Because you're meeting yourself. This is all just one giant cosmic mirror."














When a writer can sum up an entire period of heartbreak into one casual passing sentence in a book is impressive.









Thursday, October 15, 2015

Notes from my 86th trip (Celebration with Madrinha Nonata)






Desirée is one of my best friends. She let me put the accent mark in her name incorrectly nearly the entire time we were together.









A large part of me is afraid that I will never find someone that will love me as much as I love Flora. Maybe that's okay though, because I was reaching into weird, obsessive territory.











At the end of the day, regardless of what happens, the Love I lived with Flora, not everyone is afforded that privilege in life.











The fact that women can push another human being out of their bodies is something that is not respected enough these days.














When she used the word "boyfriend", I have to admit, a part of me twitched. At first,  I thought it was because I didn't want her, that I was repelled by the thought of spending the rest of my life w/ her, but when I think about it now, it was because I was afraid, I was afraid of throwing away something really special on a gamble that had every odd stacked against me. I was afraid of that truth, that what this man had said about this woman was 100% true. And I was just to blind at the time to see it.













One of the biggest compliments that Desirée gave me was that she said I was the type of guy she would have children with. Flora actually said the same thing. In fact, the one time she thought she was pregnant, she was overwhelmingly happy, instead of freakin' the fuck out.











One of the funniest things someone ever said to me was that she had to avoid the World Cup in Brazil because she'd come home pregnant.









Monday, October 12, 2015

Notes from my 85th trip (Cura)






The LOVE you have for yourself. Nobody can take that away from you. Not anyone. Not the voices, not the opinions. Not Flora, even she cannot take that from you. The Love you have for yourself. That is your right, given by God.

























Your father needs you. It is a matter of life and death

























What if this is your father's final message to you?














Flora is home. It's her. That is a fact of your life. It is not something you can change, unfortunately.















You have to keep track of Flora, make sure she's okay. That is the role you signed up for. Whether you realized it or not. 




















You lost sight of who you were in Brazil. It is because you finally saw your path, your purpose in this world. You couldn't handle it. That's why you're here. 

















When your body betrays you. When it betrays you it is giving you a warning call that it is in need of self-rescue. Self-preservation. 
















I hate to say this, but to be a good writer, you have to know what it is to suffer.

















I don't think a parent is every ready to say goodbye to their child. 


















These things that our bodies and minds are capable of. To think, to move, to have the sense of humor we do, the ability to deconstruct and reconstruct systems. To love. It can all be taken away in an instant. It is very important to give thanks to what we have - every, single day. 










Sunday, August 16, 2015

A phone conversation

I spoke with Flora the other week over the phone. It’s been at least a few months since I’ve communicated with her, let alone spoken to her. The intention was I guess ‘closure’ in some ways, but it actually turned out to be the complete opposite. All of it just reminded of why I fell in love with her in the first place, why I’m still in love with her, from the moment I heard her voice again.

For the most part, the conversation went well. If time was like physical space, it was as if we simply left ourselves in a spot down the street, and talking again was like backtracking a few paces to recover a dropped bag. Everything in its natural rhythm, its joyous cadence, its playful exchanges, almost as if we were still a couple. In some ways it makes me happy. It means that the spark between is still there. I just don’t know what she meant by any of it. I asked her not to talk about her romantic life, so maybe she’s in love with someone else, and just took the whole thing as a friendly encounter. I keep holding onto her words, meticulously dissecting them to see if maybe they meant more. Hoping they meant more. But I can’t really tell. I was too afraid to ask.

The original reason I called Flora was because I wanted to ask her to give me back my heart. I guess I feel like I’m still walking around as half a person, that something is missing. I didn’t ask her that in order for me to be open to dating other people, but to function in my life. I think one of the biggest things I learned through this whole ordeal is that love isn’t just about focusing on one other person and calling that love. It’s about how you live your life and living life with half a heart is painful. It fucking sucks, basically. I had been wanting to ask her to do this for quite some time now. I scripted it out and everything, about how I was going to make it all dramatic and that maybe she’d be ecstatic to know that I still loved her. Of course, none of it came out the way I wanted it to come out. It never does with Flora. That’s kind of the beauty that is her.

I don’t know what drove me to finally ask her to do this for me. For weeks I was afraid of asking her. I know it’s for my own well-being. I know that both symbolically and energetically, it would be what I needed to move on with my life. At the end of the day, none of this was for her, it was all for me. But I was still scared, because what if she gave my heart back? Then what would I do?

About half-an-hour into our conversation, I finally brought it up. It went something like this:

“Hey so the original reason I wanted to call you is because I need to talk to you about something…” Silence on the other end.

“Yeah?” she finally said.

“I still love you,” I started. “I’m still in love with you. Like before. Nothing has changed.”

“The same?”

“Exactly as it was from the first day I saw you…”

More silence.

“That’s very poetic,” she finally said.

“No, it’s actually fucking up my life. I can’t date anyone. All I think about is you, you, you.” I could feel her blushing on the other side of the phone.

“But I’m not asking for my heart back to date anyone else,” I continued. “I’m asking for it back so I can move on with my life. I see now that a lot of what broke us apart was the insecurity I have, like day-to-day stuff and I need to work on that. I need my heart to do that.”

More silence.

“I mean you don’t have to give it back, if you want it,” I tried. “But if you’re not going to use it, or take care of it, give it back to me.”

After a few more seconds of silence she finally said.

“No! It’s mine! I’m never letting it go!”

I’ll be honest. Something in my heart leaped when she said that. I didn’t know how to react. But she brought it back down when she continued.

“I shouldn’t joke like that. You’re being serious. Ok…” She took in a deep breath. “…I release it.”

I didn’t feel anything immediately when she said that. In fact, part of my heart must have chipped on its way back over when she said she was joking about it. Part of me wanted her to be serious, to be selfish, to want to hold on. I would have let her.

“…But I get to keep a piece of it!” she added.

I laughed a bit. “No. I need the whole thing,” I said.

She sort of sighed and thought about it for a few minutes. I imagine her rocking her head back and forth. Then she finally said,

“Ok. But I’m tattooing my name on it. We were a big part of each other’s lives. We have memories that you’ll never forget, I’ll never forget…”

“Yeah, honestly, sometimes I wish I could forget them…”

I wasn’t trying to be mean by saying what I said. It’s not that I don’t find our time together beautiful, in fact, they were the most beautiful moments of my life, but living in those thoughts is like a cruel trick. It’s like floating in the white tips of a cloud only to realize that you can’t grasp onto any of it. And she understood that I meant it in that way.

“Well…you won’t forget me. And I won’t forget you. That’s just how it is,” she said. “But you’re free now. ‘Free bird.’”

She said the last two words in English, just so I understood. I smiled because I missed the way she sounded in that language, and a rush of emotions came right after that.

It’s been nearly a year since I broke up with Flora and for whatever reason I have not recovered from that wound. It still hurts as the first day she told me that the feeling she once held for me had passed. I try desperately to move on with my life, but it is like all the turns are wrong, all the doors lead to nowhere, and the questions I have about my life still remain unanswered. And at the end of the day, I still haven’t learned how to accept that I am no longer an important part of her life.

I know this situation doesn’t compare to the context of how this thought is normally used, but I understand why some people don’t want to be free. Sometimes, liberation really hurts. And if I am indeed “free”, I am very much a person who does not know what to do with his freedom.

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Notes from my 84th trip (Concentration)









Nick. Flora is not here anymore. It's time that you accept that.










Sometimes I think that we are all, in some ways, vehicles, and the adventure and safety that we can provide another person is in essence the measure of who we are in the world. Right now I don't think that I'm a very good ride. In fact, I'm quite ashamed of how shitty the experience would be.












You know, you have to apply what you believe to be a good martial arts instructor to how you live your life. Someone that will stretch your limits, but still caring of who you are. Sometimes I don't even know if you like yourself, and that needs to be resolved.














At the end of the day I was not able to take care of Flora, like I was not, and still am not in a place where I can be responsible for another human being. But she made me want to be so that I could. And that is why I loved her so.













I am really working on being a responsible person. That is why I was sent back to Seattle and when I think about it, I have great teachers here to give me their lessons.














Write the story about Morocco and submit it somewhere. It is a worthy tale.














Your father is a really interesting person. You could learn a lot from him if you just spoke to him more.










I went back to my parents for 2 weeks, and when I left this time it didn't feel like freedom. It felt like sadness. 














The thing I loved so much about Flora was that she never tried to be anything. She just was. Goddamn authenticity. Always gets me.












People who want to write a book because they think their life is 'crazy', need to realize that everybody is crazy; you've just been so self-absorbed that you've never bothered to ask someone else what their life about. 












The thing I learned about adulthood today is that it is when you are strong enough to contend w/ your fears. You no longer run from them. You have enough belief that you can best them. 













George is one of my funniest friends. I think anyone named George is somebody's funniest friends.













That moment Michael and I decided to stay in Ibiza for one more night was the awesomest. It changed both of our lives.














I can see why people who've dedicated their lives to mastinger English grammar probably hate things like Facebook, YouTube and reddit.














I think a lot of people mistake medical malpractice w/ bad customer service.














Be nicer to your Mom.
















This fractured ankle has single-handedly been of the greatest teachers in my life. It taught how to command the Being inside me to discipline itself, because the vehicle in which it travels is under repair.













I think it's important to remember that you are still recovering. You're not at your peak form.














Prison probably has some of humanity's most interesting characters. What they're put through is inhumane though. It goes far beyond the limit of punishing them for their crime. 














The first time me and Flora made love was on Children's Day.

















Follow Love. Just follow Love. Everything you will be in need of on that journey will appear on your path.












I am like a prince trapped in his tower, waiting for the cavalry to arrive.














Flora told me that dating me was like a giant LSD trip. I laughed at that, because for me dating her was, and still is, a long Daime trip that doesn't end.