Everyone is different and all true paths lead to the same source. There is no need to judge a path if it is not the one you are walking.
The majority of the second half of you and Flora's relationship was painful and you do not need the pain any longer. You have learned all you needed to learn.
That feeling of rescue arriving in a moment of deep despair, that is what VONA is for the tribe of writers.
The biggest problem w/ most writers is that they have all these opinions on shit they've never lived themselves.
If I'm to be completely honest, I'd say the majority of Fulbright scholars are snot-nosed over-educated kids that want attention for the intellect. I can say that b/c I'm a Fulbright scholar.
Flora, I always want you to be safe and happy, but I do not want you in my life at this moment. That's not to say I'm not open to it in the future, and I'm not talking about as a lover, a mate, or even a friend. I mean as a person in my life. When that door opens, maybe you will be there or you will not be there, but right now that door is closed. You are no longer welcomed in this house.
Every moment of my life has been about training for a greater goal. I am now starting to see that goal.
I am actually really glad i haven't written a book because had I written a book anytime before, say, 3 years from now, the way I thought and level of my writing ability, I'd probably want to strangle myself. It would have all come from the ego.
Most people that want to write a book about their lives need to understand that almost everyone lives a life, just as, if not more, interesting than yours.
You need to separate the moments between when you are working through your own shit and when you are working with the Divine.